Thursday, August 27, 2009

Struggling with time

My routines look fabulous on paper but never translate well into real life! It seems that there is always something going on that needs to be dealt with or taken care of. Last week and this week I have been tackling cleaning and getting every room organized. I have this vision that if every room is neat and tidy every single day then they will be easy to keep that way. Like I said, it is a vision - I am getting close to it being reality, it is just taking some time.

Then this week Ben & Carlee decided that we should start potty training. Go here to read about it on my other blog. So this week I have been a little busy with potty training and also still trying to get the house cleaned and organized.

On top of all of that I am also planning and organizing to start our home preschool. All I have left to do now is the daily lesson planning and photocopying worksheets.

All of this is really just a bad excuse. Why should all of these things get in the way of my time with God. Why am I not putting Him first? Spending time with God every day should be my first priority. I know that the more time I spend with God, the more at peace I will be, the more blessed I will be, and for my children I will be a better Mother. I know this, my faith is strong enough to know all of this deep in my soul. So why am I so stubborn about this, of course stubborn is also being disobedient!

What do I need to do to make a commitment to God and to myself to spend more time with God in prayer and in the Word? Simple - I need to get up earlier, I need to get up before my kids do! UGGGGGG if you know me you will understand that this sucks! I am definately not a morning person! As a teenager, my mom would send the dog downstairs to wake me up because I was such a bear! I am pretty sure that I have drastically improved since then, but I still do not wake up well. Blah blah blah I just realized how badly I am complaining and at the same time how disobendient I am being to God.

I will get up early tomorrow morning!!! The best way to do it is to pray for help. Dear Lord, I know I have been dispobedient to you. I desperately want to spend time with you and study your Word. Please help me with this. Help me to get enough restful sleep, help me to wake up before my kids so that I have that time to spend with you. Please give me encouragement so that I can do this and start being obedient in this. In Jesus name, Amen!

1 comment:

Cilla said...

Hi Carrie, I came to your blog through your comment on Titus2:3-5 blog about 40 day fast from junk food... and then looked at your first blog on your list! And liked your 'about me'
I'm thinking too that I'd like to have a separate spiritual blog. I would say that up until last week I lacked a meaningful relationship with God... but I hope and pray that things are changing. But.. at the moment it is not something I want to share with some of my family/friends who know of my blog.